In the end

And in the end, things just don't change.
I'm all alone, feeling like crap, being an idiot with myself and just not being able to make a move, just say something or changing things.

I'm sill all alone. With nobody. Specially the person that I need the most.
He's just not capable of helping me. He doesn't understand, for some reason, that this is wrong. This is not the way to deal with things. This is not the way you show affection for somebody. This is the way you hurt and you make someone feel like crap. Even if you don't plan it. This is the way things are.

There's nothing else I can say or think. I just have to face this.